I’ll Be In The Sky…

May 19, 2009

I’ll Be In The Sky…
 ^click me! click me!^

Advertisements

til death do us part.

May 16, 2009

funny phrase.
you don’t think too much about until you realize the importance and meaning of it. sure it’s typical to weddings but i apply it to all relations. there were two others before this one each hitting home a little differently. the first was the most tragic, being it was my first meeting with dear old mr. death and he made certain a few months later he was not a shy new friend. but this. i do not have any specific words for it. not even one. i guess i am still in disbelief he visited again. he steals i don’t really like him all that much. he got real close this time tho. you know you never really quite understand how it feels when someone talks about losing a family member to this guy. you can’t quite sympathize or feel how truly unspeakably painful it is when your family is as close as mine. titles such as aunt or uncle or cousin just don’t do any justice. with my family it’s so much more than just family, there isn’t a word for it. and when someone slips away, out of line, stolen. the equilibrium is all ‘fucked up’ for lack of better words [sorry mom]. all those death cliches of ‘you will be truly missed’ just isn’t enough this time there isn’t anything i could possibly think of that expresses how i really truly feel at this very moment. if there was a word for how someone feels the EXACT moment the words enter into their ear flow to the brain and seep into it that moment where everything is uncontrollable, that moment of sheer terror and shock. i would sure like to know what it is, i’ve theasaurused and dictionaried every possible word i could think of and there isn’t one. i’m hurting now but i know that these next few days are going to be hell. i really hate this entire process more than anything. all i can think of right now is how everything falls apart over time. how perfect everything was when i was six when my biggest fear was the dark [which happened to stay with me] and the most pain i felt was the terror i’d have if everyone else in the house had fallen asleep before i had and all the lights were out. everyone was happy and together and i had yet to meet this man. and so sorry at seventeen i did. he’s all a part of life though i guess and someday he’ll come to take me to where he’s taken the others. time heals wounds externally and internally. pray for me.

i love you & i miss you aunt b, but you already know that.

Ancestry Smancestry

May 6, 2009

Ancestry Smancestry

wow, so this woman is somewhat of a hero and pretty popular in the cancer research area. the creepy CREEPY really EFFING CREEPY thing is we are DIRECTLY related. she’s from my exact home town [yea Halifax..more so small town Clover <3] and is in my direct line of family on my dad’s side. this is scary cool. i wonder why no one was ever compensated or recognized if these HeLa cells are so great? something to ponder i guess…

Anyway click the Title [Ancestry Smancestry] to read the Wikipedia entry. yep Lacks Family we made wiki. woohoo.

this is your brain on drugs.

May 3, 2009

school is your brain on drugs.
society is your brain on drugs.
as we come to an end with another hour, another day, another week, another month of school it’s a bittersweet feeling.

i’m not quite sure how i feel about that though. i’m a little bit sad and extremely happy at the same time. i wonder if i’ll finally have peace of mind?

the beginning of the end and the end of the beginning.
i hope we’re ready.

goodluck.

I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.

April 26, 2009

I am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Imagination encircles the world.
Albert Einstein, preach.

this is sick, this lady [Linda Huber] did this with a PENCIL. out.of.control peep some of her others, it’s mindblowing.http://www.midtel.net/~imaginee/

April 22, 2009

this is sick, this lady [Linda Huber] did this with a PENCIL.

out.of.control

peep some of her others, it’s mindblowing.
http://www.midtel.net/~imaginee/

reigny daze

April 21, 2009

my favorite thing in the entire world is the weather right before it storms, it’s something that i wish i could experience everyday for the rest of my life sans the actual storm. when i was a little girl i’d stand on my grandma’s porch or sit out on my deck and close my eyes and just think about everything and feel that cool but not too cool air rushing around my face and for that quick second just before that first raindrop hits my nose i am happy, completely happy. the calm before the storm. as i take that in the clouds let out and i am forced back under some kind of shelter until it’s over lol. i can’t quite understand why i love it so much but i do. it reminds me a lot of how i am, i feel like i am always right on the edge. in-between. not quite the gorgeous sunny day yet still not the raging storm. i’m kind of right there between the two, absorbing elements of both. ha.

April 16, 2009

strange is the art of writing, paint with words your notebook canvas.

November 23, 2008

strange is the art of writing, paint with words your notebook canvas.
moi

as far as love? i know it exists, my family has shown me that and though i have been dangerously close, i refuse to search for it any longer. it will find me.

October 7, 2008

as far as love? i know it exists, my family has shown me that and though i have been dangerously close, i refuse to search for it any longer. it will find me.

moi